I did it. I’ve finally done it. After years of knowing I should, I’ve told husband I want a divorce. I’ve said that before but never followed through. I’m following through this time. I’ve discovered his love language, but it’s not one of the five I’ve read about in books. It’s one they don’t write…

Gosh, last night was a doozy that seemingly came out of nowhere. If I peel back the layers, though, I suppose the real driver of his fury was the fact that he had to look after the kids for a few hours while I worked during the day. He could never bring himself to acknowledge…

Gosh, we’ve been doing so well. Today we leave for our family vacation, which is super exciting. The one thing to consider, though, is that travelling with a 2 and 3 year old is not an easy task. We had a bit of a nightmare journey once when we had both made the foolish decision…

So the husband and I have had the same exhausting arguments, which isn’t news. What is different, though, is there seems to be a tiny window of consideration peeking in through the fog. A couple of days ago, he acknowledged that something he had done was uncalled for. I can’t recall exactly what it was,…

This is too much. The constant ego-driven everything that is our world. The never-ending manipulation and emotional neglect. I just can’t stand it anymore. There must be better out there. There must be a world that exists where I am permitted to feel without retribution. There must be a world where warm embraces and gentle…

It was a beautiful, sunny day. The kiddos are being their typically adorable selves, husband and I had gone out the night before, and I was excited to continue with the new visual daily plan for our boy. He did so well with it during the week and I can’t wait to show husband how…

Another big blowup today. The morning started off chaotic, with DS being very unsettled from the start. DH tried to let me sleep in so I woke at 730 to a very unhappy little boy. It took a while to calm him down. Just as he was calming, DD started kicking off. This tends to…

We took our little boy on a tour of his new school today. It was really sweet to see him take everything in. The special needs coordinator for the school was amazing, and I am so optimistic about DS’s experience here. How have we already reached the age for Kindergarten? It feels like he was…

Came out of nowhere too. In fact, I spent time yesterday thinking about how nice it will be to add a bit of balance to my little online journal project with a dose of, “this has been really lovely” for a couple of days. It was genuinely pleasant over the weekend. There was no fighting…

Let me take you back to moving day. In the pack up and initial move days, I was totally in charge of all things relating to the logistics of moving because husband had to work. This was A LOT. I was single handedly project managing and coordinating the comings and goings of: Although I was…